What Am I Thinking?

School started yesterday. I love school, don't get me wrong, but it is already really stressing me out. First, my schedule is anything but convenient; I'm at the point where there isn't much choice in time or classes. I thought I had it perfect and set, then I went to one of the classes yesterday and realized it would not work for me. The only class I could find to replace it is a Thursday night class, which means Davey is at work so we have to find a place for Adelaide. Thanks Randy (probably Kip too).

Second, for some reason going last semester didn't worry me, maybe its because the baby wasn't due last semester, I just had to make it through feeling crappy. But now, I'm worried that I'm doing too much, and I won't be able to get everything done in time because who knows when he will decide to come. I hate having to work out special circumstances and arrangements in order to get things done. But hey, this was my choice I suppose. It would be nice to have one more semester out of the way before #2 comes.

So, I am freaked out, praying he waits to come until I'm through with the semester, and hoping I can stay sane and stress-free for his sake (and mine).

Oh boy.

The New Year

I can't believe it is the last day of 2009. This year has gone by so fast, I don't think I was able to keep up with it. It was a really good year. I was able to quit my job, go back to school full-time, we purchased a more economically-sized car, I rode my bike (a lot), I turned 29 holy crap I'm almost thirty years old, luckily enough Davey turned I'll always be older than you 31, I canned my first batch of jam ever, went to California (twice), and last but not least we discovered we will be welcoming a baby boy come spring. I'm sure there was much more that happened but those things stand out to me at the moment.

I'm excited for what is to come in 2010, as usual, no resolutions for me. We have our 7th anniversary in February, baby due in April (please let me make it through the next semester?!), a summer off to recover, a 30th birthday for me which will be awesome, my baby girl turning 5, and who knows what else!

I know I would like to simplify life a bit, lower our expenses, and not be so caught up in what is new and desirable in the world. I want to read more books, be content with what my body ends up like after baby #2, be healthy, and enjoy life.

Here's to a new and wonderful 2010!

"Let nothing perturb you, nothing frighten you. All things pass. God does not change. Patience achieves everything."
~Mother Teresa

One of my Favorites

I have a recommendation. This is my all-time favorite Christmas book. This was the book Adelaide wanted me to read to her before bed tonight. I cried. I cry every time I read it.
It's the sweetest, most touching story about the true meaning of Christmas from the eyes of of a child.

I love it. Love it love it love it.

Gratitude

"Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful." - Buddha

Sometimes when I pray at night, I thank the Lord for everything. I thank him for my arms, legs, eyes, toes, sense of taste, and sight. I thank him for my mistakes, the lessons learned, and the lessons I have yet to learn. I thank him for my family, the members I have now and the ones yet to come. I thank him for the snow I dread so much as well as the warm sun in the sky. I thank him for a place to lay my head at night and a school I learn in by day. I thank him for my health and the health of my family. I try to think of everything.

Lately I've been feeling not just thankful, but grateful. I have such gratitude in my heart that it is overflowing. The blessings that I have been given are immense and innumerable and number more than the stars I'm sure. My life is great and it will continue to be great, no matter what comes my way.

I am so grateful for the life I have been given and the opportunities that I have to make life what I want it to be. I hope that everyone can feel as blessed and grateful as I do, because we have all been given so much.

~I wish to everyone a happy Thanksgiving ~

The Ladybug

One day last week, Adelaide told me that she found a ladybug. It was sitting in the lid of a shoebox, just sitting there on the coffee table. I thought it was dead because it hadn't moved a bit and she was kind of squishing it. It was time for her nap and she really, really wanted to snuggle it. So I, figuring it was dead, said ok.

She took it with her and set the shoebox lid on the pillow next to her. A few hours later I went in to see if she was awake. She was, but I couldn't find where the lid or the ladybug had gone to. I finally found the lid wrapped up in her blanket, but no ladybug. So I helped her out of bed and sure enough, there was the ladybug. But it wasn't dead, it was crawling all over the sheets where she had been laying.

I'm glad the ladybug wasn't dead, so was she.

Too Long

I can't believe how long it's been since I've posted. Don't worry it's for a good reason and hopefully I'll get back to it soon. But in the meantime, I have a horrible headache that just won't quit. That's not very uplifting, but hopefully the way I feel when it's gone will be.