Actually, it's more like 6 days until this little boy arrives. Last night made me sure that I am about ready for his arrival. I had the most intense pelvic/low back pain for two and a half hours straight. I couldn't sit down, walking around hurt like you know what, and laying down didn't help either.
I have my last final to take on Thursday and then I'm done. I will be so relieved when this semester is over. I will never have to go to school pregnant again.
I want to go to the tulip festival at Thanksgiving Point this weekend, I hope it works out. If it doesn't that's OK, too. Addie and I went last year with Natalie and the kids and it was a lot of fun.
I don't think reality has set in and I'm afraid it won't until I'm pushing in the hospital. Things seem so surreal right now. My poor daughter has been asking for so much of my time and I hate that I have to dedicate it to finishing this semester. Then I feel guilty because I don't have many days left where she will be my one and only child. She will have to share her time with her little brother and my time won't be available for her and her only. I hope she will understand how much I still love her and I will always make time for her, no matter what.
I'm super-nervous and I wish I could relax. I hate the unknown, not knowing exactly when, what, and how. I pray that everything will go well, that he will be healthy and that we will have a safe delivery.
His coming to this world has been something I've wanted for a long time and it's finally just about here. I don't feel ready at all, but do you ever really feel ready? Even if it's something you've always wanted? One thing I know is that he is going to be one loved little boy and his presence has been longed for in our house.
See you soon little guy...
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
2 weeks
I have so much to do in the next two weeks. I have to finish everything I need to for school, thank goodness my teachers are giving us finals the week before finals this semester. Though that's one less week to work on my final projects.
I have to get mentally prepared for this little boy to come into our lives.
Hopefully get the house as spic and span as possible before he comes, too.
The yard is a mess. But I really have no idea when that's going to get done. I'm too tired to do it now, too much homework to do, and too many other things on my mind. Then the baby will be here and the yard still won't get cleaned up. Yikes, it's gonna get ugly.
I really need to get as prepared as I can. I know this baby is going to come and my world is going to turn upside down. Going from one beautiful, self-capable 4 and a half year old, to two children is going to be crazy. I'm so out of newborn mode. I haven't had to change or buy diapers for two years. I haven't had to nurse or wake up in the night multiple times for four years. Wowza.
On the other hand, I am ecstatic. I am thrilled to have a little boy, and thrilled to be a mom to two beautiful kids. I am excited that Adelaide will finally get to have the experience of a sibling and to see how sweet she'll be with her baby brother. It's going to be crazy but amazing all at the same time. I think I'm going to have sensory/emotional overload.
Life is complicated. It's amazing how things happen and line up in a certain way. It seems to know what it's doing, even if we don't know exactly what's going on. Though we may not like it or understand why things are the way they are, it always works out and happiness seems to follow. I like it.
I have to get mentally prepared for this little boy to come into our lives.
Hopefully get the house as spic and span as possible before he comes, too.
The yard is a mess. But I really have no idea when that's going to get done. I'm too tired to do it now, too much homework to do, and too many other things on my mind. Then the baby will be here and the yard still won't get cleaned up. Yikes, it's gonna get ugly.
I really need to get as prepared as I can. I know this baby is going to come and my world is going to turn upside down. Going from one beautiful, self-capable 4 and a half year old, to two children is going to be crazy. I'm so out of newborn mode. I haven't had to change or buy diapers for two years. I haven't had to nurse or wake up in the night multiple times for four years. Wowza.
On the other hand, I am ecstatic. I am thrilled to have a little boy, and thrilled to be a mom to two beautiful kids. I am excited that Adelaide will finally get to have the experience of a sibling and to see how sweet she'll be with her baby brother. It's going to be crazy but amazing all at the same time. I think I'm going to have sensory/emotional overload.
Life is complicated. It's amazing how things happen and line up in a certain way. It seems to know what it's doing, even if we don't know exactly what's going on. Though we may not like it or understand why things are the way they are, it always works out and happiness seems to follow. I like it.
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