* I felt it only proper, especially in light of recent events, to post this again.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone.
I know it's not Thanksgiving yet, but I am feeling the need to express my thanks for the things in my life.
I wish I was a gifted writer so I could truly convey my feelings and have others understand. Well, that just wasn't my gift and I am ok with that. I am THANKFUL for that.
Let me explain:
I have been doing some thinking lately about the events that have taken place in my life. Some wonderful, some not so much. Some so good I could scream with happiness, some so bad I wanted to scream in absolute agony (and I did). I must confess that most of the bad has come from my very own creation. Yep, mine. Me, myself and I. This has transposed into many problems for me in the here and now. I've been dwelling on them a lot lately. It seems that I've developed a case of the shoulda-woulda's. Now, I know very well that shoulda-woulda's do absolutely nothing for the here and now. So I must change this way of thinking. Things are the way they are (period). That is the end of the story. So, what must I do? I must go on with life. Go on with life with a thankful heart. The reason I must go on with a thankful heart is because it makes life easier. It makes it easier and it makes it better.
I had a discussion with a co-worker of mine this past week. We were talking about how powerful our minds are and how they help us heal. She is the one who brought up the fact that we need to be thankful. Thankful for everything. The good and the bad. The good things and the bad things have brought us to where we are today. Those actions and decisions have made us who we are and will continue to mold us into what we will become.
As I've jumped around from blog to blog, discovering joys and tragedies of other people, I've discovered again how thankful I am. Thankful that I have my own joys and my own tragedies and these are my own. My very own. No one elses. And I am thankful for that. How would I deal with anyone else's tragedies!? I couldn't, but I can deal with my own. But, the tragedies of others do help me remember what I am grateful for. Maybe someone else's joy would not be my own if it were mine. So I find joy in what I have. Oh how the grass seems greener sometimes!
Now, it comes down to this.
I am thankful for everything in my life, EVERYTHING!
From the bad days to the good. The sickness to the health. The lessons learned to the ones I have yet to learn. From the lovely summer days to the bitter cold months of depression.
I am thankful for my family and the fact that they stick with me through thick and thin (man I put them through a lot). I am thankful for my constant battle with my body, and my mind.
I am thankful for the questions that run through my mind about religion, education, and politics. I am thankful for the opportunity to go to school, however long it may take me. I am thankful for a home to live in and a car to drive. I am thankful to live in America. I am thankful to wake up each and every morning. I am thankful to be able to walk on my two legs, and use both arms. I am thankful to see, hear, breathe, speak, touch, and smell. I am thankful for my money mistakes and spontaneous purchases that shouldn't have been made. I am thankful for the fact that I can eat, even though my food options are limited. I am thankful for books, good stories, and learning. I am thankful for faith, and the sheer determination to do what's right. I am thankful for good friends. I am thankful for my green thumb. I am thankful for my job. I am thankful for our stinky dog. I am thankful for a husband that forgives me and gives me a quadrillion chances. I am thankful for a daughter who loves her mommy. I am thankful for a shower so I can be clean every day. I am thankful for a kind, compassionate, forgiving God. I am thankful for my ability to dance, to do yoga, and ride my bike. I am thankful to live in such a beautiful state. I am thankful for the hair on my head. I am thankful for Math, though I hate it. I am thankful for Jesus Christ. I am thankful for Disneyland. I am thankful for Doctors. I am thankful for alternative healers. I am thankful for my birthday and the fact that I get older and wiser every year. I am thankful for dark chocolate. I am thankful for Adelaide wanting to help me in the kitchen. I am thankful for the President. I am thankful for Oprah and how she makes me glad I'm not her. I am thankful for the sun. I am thankful for blogging. I am thankful for the ocean and the mountains. I am thankful for the one moon in the entire sky and the stars that surround it. I am thankful for music. I am thankful for inspiring quotes that remind me. I am thankful for this life that has been given to me.
I am thankful for this life that has been given to me.
That is it. What it all comes down to. And I'm thankful for everything that comes with it. Because without sorrow there is no joy. Without this life, how would I learn? What could I know? How could I grow? One day I will find out what this is all about. In the meantime, I will be thankful and I will drink in all that comes way. I will love, learn, grow, and simply be..........
thankful.
