I'm starting to realize that there is only so much you can do.
Everything I have been doing lately has seemed to do nothing but bite me in the ass. I am trying to be honest, I am trying to follow my gut, I'm trying to be up front with people, and I'm trying to confide in my friends to form closer relationships. I guess it was my mistake in thinking that these things would only bring positive consequences. I've also been trying really hard to stop thinking that I can make people understand me and see things how I see them. I know this is impossible but I think that if they could only understand how I am feeling that it would make everything better. It would resolve the issue... But this can't be done. This can't be done because you cannot control what other people say, think, or do. Everyone has a choice and sometimes those choices affect you and there's nothing you can do about it. The only thing you can change is your attitude toward it.
I'm frustrated... I think that I am doing the right things but soon discover that I am wrong. Maybe I just need to be patient, maybe I'm still on the right track but I need more time. Maybe some things just aren't meant to be...
